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“I hurt that woman,” LaBeouf told fellow actor Bernthal, without naming FKA, 34. “And in the process of doing that, I hurt many other people, and many other people before that woman … I was a pleasure-seeking, selfish, self-centered, dishonest, inconsiderate, fearful human being.”
“I f—ed up bad. Like crash and burn type s—. [I] hurt a lot of people, and I’m fully aware of that. And I’m going to owe for the rest of my life,” LaBeouf said, adding that he has a “long list of people that I need to make amends to.”
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LaBeouf admitted that he had suicidal thoughts after the allegations went public: “I went and loaded up a gun and sat at my table, and was gonna kill myself.”
The Disney Channel alum said he hoped to set an example with his response to the abuse allegations.
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“What I think now my purpose is, is to not do … the other examples we’ve had of how to navigate something like this,” he said. “Which is to go after the woman, or try to win a court case, or get back into a f—ing movie or like, get back on at all.
FKA Twigs, whose real name is Tahliah Barnett,filed a lawsuitagainst ex LaBeouf in December 2020, accusing him of sexual, physical and emotional abuse, as well as knowingly giving her a sexually transmitted disease.
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“My failings with Twigs are fundamental and real, but they are not the narrative that has been presented,” LaBeouf told Wilde, 38, in the email. “There is a time and a place to deal with such things, and I am trying to navigate a nuanced situation with respect for her and the truth, hence my silence.”
After announcing that hewas seeking treatmentfollowing the accusations, LaBeouf revealed in the letter that he’s627 days sober, referring to the past year as “my great humbling.”
LaBeouf and wifeMia Gothhave sincewelcomed their first child, 5-month-old daughterIsabel.
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source: people.com
