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Kathy Griffinis finding light in a dark situation.
The comedian and actress, 61, appeared on the most recent episode of The New York Times’Swaypodcast, where she opened up — and cracked jokes — about her addiction to pills and past suicide attempts.
“I think that I’m probably an addictive person, you know,” Griffin shared on Thursday’s episode.
“But you have to admit, it’s almost, like, comical,” she added. “Like, I went in the hospital for pill addiction at 59 years old. Who the hell becomes a junkie in, like, their late 50s? Me.”
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“I didn’t know what to do with myself,” theMy Life on the D-Liststar explained to host Kara Swisher.
“I was just such a crazy workaholic,” she continued. “And all of a sudden, I had this time on my hands, and then I was depressed, and things just weren’t looking up.”
“And then, you fall into the, like, life will be better for my husband without me around,” added Griffin of her love Randy Bick, whom shewed in the early hours of 2020on New Year’s Day. “It just came to a point where I really, I was convinced, like, I’ve had a good run on this planet, and now it’s time for me to go.”
Griffin also explained that the beginning of the COVID-19 pandemic also played a part in her addiction to pills.
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“Not to blame COVID, but then COVID also is like, just laying around all day and trying to figure out life,” she said. “So that was rough, although it was a good thing, ultimately, and it was sobering, quite literally.”
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“I was doing, like, a rich white lady speedball, basically,” theSearch Partyactress said.
Griffin also noted that she got “addicted like the classic story … I had injuries, and then blah, blah, blah” — and her addiction “got away from me.” She added: “Like, I kind of knew it was getting bad, but then I didn’t.”
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It wasn’t untilafter two suicide attemptsthat the comedian decided to seek help for her addiction.
After telling doctors that she had attempted suicide, Griffin was admitted to the psychiatric ward, which she called a sobering moment. “I’m there, in the hospital psych ward for three days, and boy, that will sober you up like nothing,” she explained. “You have no drugs, you’re just shaking, and I’m looking at the ceiling and just reassessing life choices and you have nothing but your own thoughts.”
Now, Griffin detailed that she has clinicians who help her throughout her sober journey after her hospital stay, which she credits with changing her for the better. “That really saved my life,” she admitted.
If you or someone you know is struggling with substance abuse, please contact the SAMHSA helpline at 1-800-662-HELP.
If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), text “STRENGTH” to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 or go tosuicidepreventionlifeline.org.
source: people.com
